Alan Vaarwerk, Editor
I’ve been reading a lot of short books lately, as part of an ongoing battle to reclaim my ever-dwindling attention span. Jenny Offill’s Dept. of Speculation has been sitting on my bookshelf for years, but I only just got around to picking it up. A number of my friends still rave about it, and now I can see why. The story is sparse but not a word is wasted; it’s a cliche to say it’s about what she doesn’t say, but it’s true – Offill’s depiction of the joy and grief of a relationship is defined as much by its silences as its descriptive passages. Every sentence is a gem, and this feels like a book I’ll be revisiting many times in the future.
I’ve also just finished Max Porter’s Grief Is The Thing With Feathers, a deceptively simple story of a man and his sons who are visited by a large crow in the wake of his wife’s death, which I’ve been reading in advance of picking up his latest book Lanny (read our review). Where Offill’s brevity feels strangely expansive, Porter’s is more inward-looking; here the silence is deafening and claustrophobic. This isn’t to say I didn’t enjoy the book – though there are elements of Crow’s nursery-rhyme delivery and Porter’s more poetic passages that I suspect went over my head, it feels like the sort of book where I’ll discover something new on each subsequent reading.
Finally this essay by the ever brilliant Patricia Lockwood has given me a new achievable goal in the war for my attention: if nothing else, I can at least actively try and not look at my phone first thing in the morning.
The first necessity is to claim the morning, which is mine. If I look at a phone first thing the phone becomes my brain for the day. If I don’t look out a window right away the day will be windowless, it will be like one of those dreams where you crawl into a series of smaller and smaller boxes, or like an escape room that contains everyone and that you’ll pay twelve hours of your life for. If I open up Twitter and the first thing I see is the president’s weird bunched ass above a sand dune as he swings a golf club I am doomed. The ass will take up residence in my mind. It will install a gold toilet there. It will turn on shark week as foreplay and then cheat on its wife.